hey guys..

i've got a new xanga now! nothings_coincidence_09

i hope i spelled coincidence right...

HEY GUYS!!!! i haven't written in forever... i miss you jessie (from cedar! (i have to clarify nowadays))

i am sad..... i am always sad....

which makes me sad! lol.. no i'm not really always sad.. i smile and i laugh.. but underneath everything it all just bites..

ahh highschool.. clarifyed as a v difficult time in life....  and it is.....

maybe the only way to go is up.. lets hope.... although i think that that's prolly not the case... because it continues to be bad.. and sometimes it keeps getting worse.. and worse.. and worse.. but it did get a little better than it was.....

if anyone could answer me a question.. then PLEASE DO!

WHY DO BOYS SUCK!?!!???

alright guys. it's christmas.. pretty late... the day was great. i love christmas. it's definitely my favorite holiday of all time. this christmas was really good. as far as presents go it was probably one of the best christmas's.. although it seems like every christmas i say that. this christmas was really great.

i feel like an idiot listing my presents so i won't.

but if you want to know, just ask because i'm definitely stoked on them.

i really hope everyones christmas went well.

I MISS YOU JESSICA!!! i love you <3 u better get back from stupid texas soon! i can't wait to talk to you on the phone!!! u better call me tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!

guys guess what? distance is gooooooooooooooooood. lol. except for with jessica of course, then distance is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!! but i will go. i love you all. kisses and hugs.

Currently Listening Songs About Jane By Maroon 5 sunday morning see related

tra la la.......

ain't life grand?

omg. i'm so mad. i just wrote an entry.. and because of my computer, it's gone.

*SHOUTS*

GOSH DANG........

i'm sad about that.

but happy otherwise

went shopping yesterday!!!

and i really really need to know something......

WHO IS MY SECRET SANTA??!?!?!

AND WHAT DID THEY GET ME!?!?!?!?!?!!!!

..... if you knew me......

and knew how i've been...

you'd realize that... i'm not blowing things out of proportion this time.... (lol, not about the secret santa)

because frankly, life is way too short.

Today is the best day of my life.......

and i here tomorrow..... is even better

I've got a lot of homework to do... but luckily... i feel goooooood.....

do ya kno what??? i'm in one of those moods where i just want to cry..but i don't know why.

i'm happy and all that jazz, i just feel like crying.

a dreamy type of cry, maybe i do know why.. but it's nothing bad, it's nothing good either, but it's nothing bad....

it's not anything really...

HA! does that make sense?

i really think that life is not just a meaningless turning of events... on some level that makes me happy, though on some level it makes me real sad. i think that i figured something out, something that had never occured to me before about why i feel some things. and its no good, no good at all. and i don't want to be mad about it. because really its good. but if what i think may be the case, is the case. i will cry.

(your not meant to understand that)

UGH! and no, i'm not weird. (not in a bad way at least)

weird i think is my least favorite word in the english language.

U

can't

just

freaking

change

 your

mind.

but whatever... as they say on laguna "I'm over it."

honestly... well i can't explain it. but i'm cool.....